So, I feel like I written about this so many times now, But I went away to Center Parcs on impact training last week thinking I was free in Christ, That I was doing well and God totally showed up and spoke to my about so many things he wanted to deal with in my life.
My main thing was that I didn't want to believe in healing, and I didn't really care to much for it, unless it was life saving. This is something that had happened to me from throughout my life praying for people for major healing and seeing nothing, yet seeing people with a slightly bad back or a cold being healed. I found it really hard to understand and I was about angry with God about it (If you know me personally you may know what I talking about specificly but because it involves someone else life I thought better then to post it on my blog, so you me and would like to know more send me a message and I will send you my newsletter). God has totally broken through on this for me though, I feel like I have a new heart for people, I actually care about their tiny aches and pains!
I had a problem with my feet where I walked on the wrong part of them, giving me a slightly odd walk and causing tiny fractures in the small bones in my feet, I got treated at the doctors and had to wear special insoles that correct my walking. I hated this insoles with all my life, I couldn't wear nice shoes, I felt like I was wearing a foot brace and was really self concious of them. I stopped wearing them and even though my feet got painful from time to time I was to suborn to wear them, maybe I would wear them from time to time if it was a partially walky day. During Christmas my feet had got unbearable and walking was extreamly painful. It got so bad when I went out with my mum one day I was actually crying because I couldn't bare it. I had to go and get new insoles (because I had thrown mine away) and had one of my feet gripped up because the muscle had also started to tear. So there was a word of knowledge about feet so I got prayer and nothing happened. Next day, another one about feet, Got prayer and nothing happened.
Eventually after God had dealt with everything he needed to in my heart, My feet got healed!
So much has happened through last week, there was a part of the talks on dealing with your emotions and I have a bit of a reputation for being a bit of a straight talker. I guess have a strong moral compass, I've always been quite happy to say If I don't think something is right. I always worry that it is a negative thing and people see this side of me more then the nice side. I always try to speak out of love. So I got prayer for it, asking God to make me nicer to people.. ha! So while I was getting prayer I got words like "God is so happy with you" and a friend gave me a word saying God has made me fisty! So basically, I asked God to change that and he said no! I guess that's a good thing.
The type I am using has gone funny! I don't know why!
Anyway that is just a snippet of what God did last week, he did loads and is continuing to. I want to get to a place where God will ask me to do anything and I will do it, Where there is no fear of man at all in me. I want to do foolish things for Jesus!
